May 18, 2010

Happyness!

I'm feeling deliciously upside down and giddy and I continue to be in love with life...there are days when the gray clouds try to break my mood but I fight them off with a workout and the sunny skies (at least the mood) is back again.

I remember years ago I had a boyfriend who "accused" me of being a happiness junkie – like it was a bad thing! – seriously?...what is that point in moping around all day when you can live life sunny side up.

I feel blessed that I do not suffer from depression and thankfully it is something I have not had to deal with. I feel it is important to recognize what you have, to look outside of yourself. It is so easy to be dissatisfied, after all, it is human nature to want more.

In the big scheme of things I lived a charmed life, I live in a great city, I experience relative stability, I have a great job that challenges me, I have great friends that love me, I am healthy and because of all of this I am happy.

I am a happiness junkie! And I am proud of it!

May 4, 2010

Love and Running

My love affair with running is not new to people that know me. In the three years that I have been on this journey, running has done nothing but improve my life in more ways than I could ever really express. I had set some ambitious goals for myself this year and so far I am on track. I am pleased with my race results and although some days I feel as though I still have a mountain to climb, I can notice the progress in my strength, speed and endurance. I am learning so much about myself and what I am capable of and the potential of what lies ahead is what keeps me going.

Often during long runs, I get into a mental space where I am able to process what is going on in my mind and sometimes something I see speaks a new thought. About a week ago as I was out on a run, a woman ran past me wearing a t-shirt that read “run like you’re in love” it got me thinking just how long it had been I had that giddy feeling of being in love with someone and also if that giddy feeling is even real?

This thought made me wonder if it possible to simply fall “out of love” and stay there ... I have seen so many partnerships fail in recent times and in some ways I am thankful that I am not exposed to that pain but I also see couples who have a wonderfully successful relationship and I admire the qualities I see in them. I see caring, trust and respect in couples that care for each other. For my mate I seek an equal, someone who lets me live my life at this present time I am so totally content with life, with MY life, with my work, with running, with my progress. I am so grateful for all of what this life brings and all the things that unfold every day.

Learning to love yourself could just be the most important love of all. Running has helped me find that. I have come such a long way in a relatively short time, I am excited to find out what else there is.